I am 16 again.
So the other day at my local used record/book store I picked up the old Romeo and Juliet soundtrack. Listening to it right now, I am like mentally transported back to being 16 years old. I loved the shit out of this c.d. and I still do. Some of the awesome bands include Garbage, Radiohead, The Cardigans, Butthole Surfers, and Everclear. The track “Local God” by Everclear is so much fun; “I see you twist and turn. You look so fucking stupid”. The Garbage track #1 Crush is so sexy and fierce. Des’ree who was a major pop star back in the 90’s (anyone remember “You Gotta Be”?) sings “Kissing You” like she invented the love song.
Yes. I am going to appreciate this $5 purchase for a very long time. :)
Open letter to religious people: “Your willful ignorance is inexcusable, and it frankly, disgusts me.”
LATELY- I have been feeling really down on myself, trying to hold myself up to standards of beauty that I didn’t make, nor fit into and probably never will. I look at all these beautiful girls and get so fucking jealous,… like, WHY NOT ME??????! I think about all of the ways in which I am lacking and feel sick. What the fuck is wrong with me? When did I lose that kick ass confidence I used to have when I was a teen-ager? Isn’t it supposed to go the other way? Aren’t you supposed to be awkward and feel ugly/gross when you are a teenager and then grow out of it? Whatfuckingever. I feel like listening to super loud angry music and writing bad poetry. I think tonight I will dye my hair purple again (like I did when I was 14) and see if the color seeps into my soul to wake it back up again.
About me
“The only people for me are the mad ones, the ones who are mad to live, mad to talk, mad to be
saved, desirous of everything at the same time, the ones who never yawn
or say a commonplace thing, but burn, burn, burn, like fabulous yellow
roman candles exploding like spiders across the stars and in the middle
you see the blue centerlight pop and everybody goes "Awww!” ~Jack Kerouac
